It's really rewarding to 'hear' you saying this.

I'm biased of course but I think here there are many enlightening conversations giving seekers insight into what's what and direction towards learning more.
Yes this isn't my site although you're probably right that the owner, ALF's founder, has left us for good. Where it will be in the future only time will tell but it's not mine to change significantly.
That's so sad, Josh, as I know how your other family relationships are tenuous. I get what you're saying about death. Knowing what we do still doesn't stop us missing loved ones and feeling sad they're not with us here.
pink gin and lemonade? yum, yum! Love it - try Greysons Pink Gin from Aldi! Budweiser? - yum, yum too! I have bottles of Bud waiting in the fridge and my second glass of Aldi 'Causeway Coast' cream liquer is on the table at the side of me as I'm writing this! Just over 4 quid a bottle and great value - God Bless Aldi and Lidl! lol
I'm doing OK thanks. Overall my health at 75 is pretty good but my Parkrun time is slow. I now closely monitor my heart rate while I'm running because although I don't fear death I have no desire to leave this world yet! Or spend my last years incapacitated! lol