You shouldn’t have said that you were a lightworker if you weren’t 100 percent sure that you were. I believe you made another post in the distant past about being a Shaman who took in peoples souls and blew them back out (whatever that means) to help with soul retrieval. I did have more to say towards that but I fear a separate thread will be made again. Whomever you’ve been consulting with has not been honest with you. Whatever research you’ve been doing is wrong. You are not a Shaman. I believe you are a reasonable, sensitive person wanting to know certain answers towards the meaning of life. Aren’t we all though?