I just needed/wanted to mention this. If anyone has insight or can offer suggestions it would be greatly appreciated. Today was my home office work day, easy day I thought. I was supposed to visit old friends 60 miles away but I could not. Went for cafe con leche (heaven in a cup!) in a Guatemalan place. The TV was on Juanes (a Colombian singer/songwriter) was performing. Susie loves him. I started weeping and had to leave the place and spill half the cup in the gutter so I could drive. I wept all day long. I know She is safe, She suffered a lot, but I am not evolved enough to emotionally and spiritually comprehend it. She is with me but I miss Her body, the body that was less than 60 pounds when She went back home. I am selfish and I am hurting. Peace.