Convolution, did your 'paranormal' experiences not prove evidential for you? Or do you suspect it was something caused by your psychology? I know that after a while it's difficult to stop the rational mind from backtracking on what you've observed, but I know I only have to reflect on what I saw and heard to think it was something objective, something external to me. Have you come across Jenn at her blog/website thesearchforlifeafterdeath.com? I think you'd enjoy it. She calls herself an 'evidential' spiritualist. I think she writes very well.