Okay… I’ve thought about this, and the best answer(s) I can give to bluebird’s question about what I’d want after death, if I can’t have the physical existence I want is probably this…
I’d probably first ask if it’s possible for me to be sent to one of the lower realms… whatever most closely matches the Earth realm. I’d probably feel comfortable there. If that’s not an option, I’d probably then choose to simply remain here, Earthbound, where I can explore the Earth and this physical universe as I please, without the restrictions of a human body, although, admittedly, the physical body is one of the trappings I was hoping to keep, in some form or another. But the benefit of immortality kind of offsets that, as I’m sure at some point, humanity will find a way to transfer consciousness from one body to another… I’d just wait.
I’ve made a lot of talk here about material things I want, like a house, or a car, whatever. But in my own thread, I’ve repeatedly stated that the one thing I want above all else in the afterlife, is to be married. Again, it’s been said that’s not possible there. But, again… if I can’t have that one thing at the least, then I genuinely have NO desire to exist in that realm, and have NO desire to have anything to do with God, or whatever you want to call that force. I wish to be wholly independent of it and it’s influence or control.