RudeAwakening

[Roberta Grimes]

Beloved friends, I have been corresponding with someone whose friendship is treasured by many longstanding members here. To my great delight, she has decided to return after an absence of a couple of months. And she has an extraordinary story to share ;-)!

Please stay tuned....

[orangeysky]

This is great news! Thank you for sharing, Roberta and WELCOME BACK, RudeAwakening!

[Fasaga]

Welcome back RudeAwakening - So happy to have you return.

[RudeAwakening]

Beloved friends, I have been corresponding with someone whose friendship is treasured by many longstanding members here. To my great delight, she has decided to return after an absence of a couple of months. And she has an extraordinary story to share ;-)!

Please stay tuned....

Hello all. I know it's been some time since I've been on the forums. Much of that had to do with some changes to my health. Some of you will know me, many of you won't.

(Note: this is not a female only post, it only begins that way.)

Part I

I am 50 years old and started having menopausal symptoms at the end of April, or at least I thought they were menopausal. I was in shock at the severity of these symptoms but they fit the profile perfectly. I'd never been sick and wasn't used to going to doctors. I missed my cycle for two straight months, I was clearly entering menopause. After a month it was also clear from the intensity that I would have to make use of Hormone Replacement Therapy. I of course wanted the best I could get to give me the strength and vitality of a younger woman and opted for the Bio Identical, out of pocket, we'll make you feel 40 again option now available.

A blood test for the therapy revealed dangerously low hemoglobin that would also fit the symptom profile for menopause as well as another disease, just not as readily. I needed a blood transfusion right away to bring those levels up, another couple of points lower was lethal.

Blood counts were indicative of a slow bleed and they set about finding it beginning with a CT scan. I was told the scan revealed multiple tumors (5) located in multiple areas of the body indicative of metastasis. I have a family history of cancer that totals 5 out of 5, no survivors in the last two generations on my grandmother’s side. Grandmother, her only two siblings, my mother and her only brother, all victims of the disease, it didn’t miss anyone. My tumors are located - 2 in the lungs one small and one huge threatening to block off the bronchial tubes, one on top of each kidney and one on top of one Adrenal gland of all places.

After admittance, after I'd been poked by a needle for blood and other at least 25 times in 2 days the only biopsy I'd allow was a kidney that revealed malignant Renal Cell Carcinoma (carcinoma means cancer) that had either metastasized from the lung or the opposite, from the lung to the kidney. We were going with kidney cancer and let me out of this hospital now.

Health care in Las Vegas is probably some of the worst in the country. Horrible nurse shortage, doctors won't practice here for a variety of reasons.

Part II

I was referred to one of the poison pumping clinics here in town and ended up with some real crackpot oncologist. The second time I saw her was the last, she was just too goofy. Hyperactive, I couldn't understand her, and I have 3 years of college level health information courses. She wanted a radiation consult and before that a lung biopsy. I had already made it clear that I was only interested in palliative treatment; She insisted that these steps were necessary in order to facilitate palliative. I knew I would not survive this cancer. The ineffectiveness of chemotherapy in these circumstances is legendary. But folks will still take the poison regardless of the odds; they may be that 1% that beats it. I opted for quality of life.

I can hardly keep my eyes open folks and will finish and post part II tomorrow. It contains my reaction and feelings to the realization that I'm going to die at 50, what’s unique about it is my personal experience with spirituality is both extensive and in some ways very innate. It’s a far different experience for me than it was for my mother just 3 yeras ago. See you tomorrow.

RA

[Carol and Mikey]

Awesome!!!!
Looking forward to the story as well !

[WWE LOVER]

Hello all. I know it's been some time since I've been on the forums. Much of that had to do with some changes to my health. Some of you will know me, many of you won't.

(Note: this is not a female only post, it only begins that way.)

Part I

I am 50 years old and started having menopausal symptoms at the end of April, or at least I thought they were menopausal. I was in shock at the severity of these symptoms but they fit the profile perfectly. I'd never been sick and wasn't used to going to doctors. I missed my cycle for two straight months, I was clearly entering menopause. After a month it was also clear from the intensity that I would have to make use of Hormone Replacement Therapy. I of course wanted the best I could get to give me the strength and vitality of a younger woman and opted for the Bio Identical, out of pocket, we'll make you feel 40 again option now available.

A blood test for the therapy revealed dangerously low hemoglobin that would also fit the symptom profile for menopause as well as another disease, just not as readily. I needed a blood transfusion right away to bring those levels up, another couple of points lower was lethal.

Blood counts were indicative of a slow bleed and they set about finding it beginning with a CT scan. I was told the scan revealed multiple tumors (5) located in multiple areas of the body indicative of metastasis. I have a family history of cancer that totals 5 out of 5, no survivors in the last two generations on my grandmother’s side. Grandmother, her only two siblings, my mother and her only brother, all victims of the disease, it didn’t miss anyone. My tumors are located - 2 in the lungs one small and one huge threatening to block off the bronchial tubes, one on top of each kidney and one on top of one Adrenal gland of all places.

After admittance, after I'd been poked by a needle for blood and other at least 25 times in 2 days the only biopsy I'd allow was a kidney that revealed malignant Renal Cell Carcinoma (carcinoma means cancer) that had either metastasized from the lung or the opposite, from the lung to the kidney. We were going with kidney cancer and let me out of this hospital now.

Health care in Las Vegas is probably some of the worst in the country. Horrible nurse shortage, doctors won't practice here for a variety of reasons.

Part II

I was referred to one of the poison pumping clinics here in town and ended up with some real crackpot oncologist. The second time I saw her was the last, she was just too goofy. Hyperactive, I couldn't understand her, and I have 3 years of college level health information courses. She wanted a radiation consult and before that a lung biopsy. I had already made it clear that I was only interested in palliative treatment; She insisted that these steps were necessary in order to facilitate palliative. I knew I would not survive this cancer. The ineffectiveness of chemotherapy in these circumstances is legendary. But folks will still take the poison regardless of the odds; they may be that 1% that beats it. I opted for quality of life.

I can hardly keep my eyes open folks and will finish and post part II tomorrow. It contains my reaction and feelings to the realization that I'm going to die at 50, what’s unique about it is my personal experience with spirituality is both extensive and in some ways very innate. It’s a far different experience for me than it was for my mother just 3 yeras ago. See you tomorrow.

RA

Hey girlfriend. Long time no hear.

I want to share a horrifying story with you about a friend of mine. He is 40, and found out early this year that he was going to die from lung cancer by the Canadian Thanksgiving (less than a month from now). He smokes and drinks, which is what the doctor said were contributing factors.

Anyway, a few months after being diagnosed as terminally ill, he found out that the doctor mixed up his file with someone else - someone else who could have been correctly diagnosed and got treatment when needed. Now that person is passed on, and my buddy might live another 40 years.

He told me that doctors make mistakes, so he isn't mad about what happened, although he feels bad about being linked to this guy who could have gotten treatment and is now on the other side. I told him this is no "spilled milk" type of situation, and if it were me, I would put on my steel toes and kick this doctor square in the nuts. No joke.

This might sound like I'm reaching, but this is only one case of where I have seen doctors make a mistake. Hopefully they made one with you too and you can be around another 50 years.

[WWE LOVER]

Hello all. I know it's been some time since I've been on the forums. Much of that had to do with some changes to my health. Some of you will know me, many of you won't.

(Note: this is not a female only post, it only begins that way.)

Part I

I am 50 years old and started having menopausal symptoms at the end of April, or at least I thought they were menopausal. I was in shock at the severity of these symptoms but they fit the profile perfectly. I'd never been sick and wasn't used to going to doctors. I missed my cycle for two straight months, I was clearly entering menopause. After a month it was also clear from the intensity that I would have to make use of Hormone Replacement Therapy. I of course wanted the best I could get to give me the strength and vitality of a younger woman and opted for the Bio Identical, out of pocket, we'll make you feel 40 again option now available.

A blood test for the therapy revealed dangerously low hemoglobin that would also fit the symptom profile for menopause as well as another disease, just not as readily. I needed a blood transfusion right away to bring those levels up, another couple of points lower was lethal.

Blood counts were indicative of a slow bleed and they set about finding it beginning with a CT scan. I was told the scan revealed multiple tumors (5) located in multiple areas of the body indicative of metastasis. I have a family history of cancer that totals 5 out of 5, no survivors in the last two generations on my grandmother’s side. Grandmother, her only two siblings, my mother and her only brother, all victims of the disease, it didn’t miss anyone. My tumors are located - 2 in the lungs one small and one huge threatening to block off the bronchial tubes, one on top of each kidney and one on top of one Adrenal gland of all places.

After admittance, after I'd been poked by a needle for blood and other at least 25 times in 2 days the only biopsy I'd allow was a kidney that revealed malignant Renal Cell Carcinoma (carcinoma means cancer) that had either metastasized from the lung or the opposite, from the lung to the kidney. We were going with kidney cancer and let me out of this hospital now.

Health care in Las Vegas is probably some of the worst in the country. Horrible nurse shortage, doctors won't practice here for a variety of reasons.

Part II

I was referred to one of the poison pumping clinics here in town and ended up with some real crackpot oncologist. The second time I saw her was the last, she was just too goofy. Hyperactive, I couldn't understand her, and I have 3 years of college level health information courses. She wanted a radiation consult and before that a lung biopsy. I had already made it clear that I was only interested in palliative treatment; She insisted that these steps were necessary in order to facilitate palliative. I knew I would not survive this cancer. The ineffectiveness of chemotherapy in these circumstances is legendary. But folks will still take the poison regardless of the odds; they may be that 1% that beats it. I opted for quality of life.

I can hardly keep my eyes open folks and will finish and post part II tomorrow. It contains my reaction and feelings to the realization that I'm going to die at 50, what’s unique about it is my personal experience with spirituality is both extensive and in some ways very innate. It’s a far different experience for me than it was for my mother just 3 yeras ago. See you tomorrow.

RA

Hey girlfriend. Long time no hear.

I want to share a horrifying story with you about a friend of mine. He is 40, and found out early this year that he was going to die from lung cancer by the Canadian Thanksgiving (less than a month from now). He smokes and drinks, which is what the doctor said were contributing factors.

Anyway, a few months after being diagnosed as terminally ill, he found out that the doctor mixed up his file with someone else - someone else who could have been correctly diagnosed and got treatment when needed. Now that person is passed on, and my buddy might live another 40 years.

He told me that doctors make mistakes, so he isn't mad about what happened, although he feels bad about being linked to this guy who could have gotten treatment and is now on the other side. I told him this is no "spilled milk" type of situation, and if it were me, I would put on my steel toes and kick this doctor square in the nuts. No joke.

This might sound like I'm reaching, but this is only one case of where I have seen doctors make a mistake. Hopefully they made one with you too and you can be around another 50 years.

[RudeAwakening]

Hey girlfriend. Long time no hear.

I want to share a horrifying story with you about a friend of mine. He is 40, and found out early this year that he was going to die from lung cancer by the Canadian Thanksgiving (less than a month from now). He smokes and drinks, which is what the doctor said were contributing factors.

Anyway, a few months after being diagnosed as terminally ill, he found out that the doctor mixed up his file with someone else - someone else who could have been correctly diagnosed and got treatment when needed. Now that person is passed on, and my buddy might live another 40 years.

He told me that doctors make mistakes, so he isn't mad about what happened, although he feels bad about being linked to this guy who could have gotten treatment and is now on the other side. I told him this is no "spilled milk" type of situation, and if it were me, I would put on my steel toes and kick this doctor square in the nuts. No joke.

This might sound like I'm reaching, but this is only one case of where I have seen doctors make a mistake. Hopefully they made one with you too and you can be around another 50 years.

How are you WWE? You sound genuinely happier than you have been in the past. Don't try and hide it now. Your post I read a few days ago was noticeably more solid and peaceful.

You are so right about medical mistakes. Hospitals are to be avoided, a last resort. The inertia, apathy and incompetence within the medical community is despicable. Of course they are the bottom of the food chain now. Big Pharma owns them, the insurance companies are killing them financially, they have no voice in the political arena either.

No mistake this time though. I got the CD from one of the CT scans so I can see them myself. (Until medical records get online we need to get copies of everything. Must be your own advocate, always. Especially blood tests and CT's. Nothing benign about my symptoms either. Thanks for the wishful thinking but I'm about to see what all the fuss is about.

[Annie]

I'm really sorry to hear this. I'm sad and angry all at the same time about what a racket the medical industry is here and WWE is right, doctors can be so incompetent, it makes me sick. I don't blame you for not wanting chemotherapy...I don't think I would either. Anyway, I'm really sad. You gave us so much information about your very unique experiences and I know how hard you tried to share them with people in your life, even if they didn't want to hear it. Well, I don't really know what to say, I hope this won't be extremely painful, both physically and emotionally. I know your mother will be so happy to see you though, and I hope you meet Mikey too. We're going to miss you, I hope this doesn't sound really negative, because a part of me of course is happy for you because I know what awaits. But you will really be missed by those of us down here.

I really need to stop this taking hiatuses thing with this forum because I potentially could end up missing so much. Curse my obsessiveness and tenacious need to have every. freaking. question. I have about the afterlife answered each time I read this forum.

[Carol and Mikey]

RA,
My post was done before I saw yours. One minute apart. I was going off of what Roberta had said.
I am so sorry to hear this. But I would do the same thing you are in regards to treatment. I too would want quality of life versus dragging things out with more misery and suffering with all the chemicals, etc. I hope things go as smooth as they can for you. Peaceful and with comfort knowing what great things are to come. There is a picture of Mikey on our thread. I know he will be wearing a baseball cap. Please ask for him! And give him a big hug for me! Someday I hope we will meet too!
Peace and love to you on this journey.
Carol