Suicide

[mac]

We're way off-topic now so I suppose I may as well join in....

If you're "Currently misplaced in Southern California" then I'm long-term equally misplaced in gray, gloomy, cloudy Britain when I much prefer the desert south-west with its Saguaro, Cholla and magnificent sunset/sunrises.... big sky Montana? big sky Arizona!

trade places? even soCal would do to start with....

[ilovelearninhg]

Since we're off topic then, let me add-I do have a light complexion but I don't think a lot of sun is good-but some does help. A little exposure to the sun is good for absorbing vitamin d and I do notice that when it rains if I'm not getting enough vitamin d-my whole body aches. I went to a rheumatologist last year after a rash appeared on both cheeks, psoriasis was acting up on my elbows and my body was achy. Fevers appeared, disappeared, then reappeared. One day I had to place my hands under my legs to get out of bed. All day that day my legs were like stiff boards. I did have a positive ana test but no autoimmune disease and no fibro. I was very grateful for that because my cousin died at a very young age of lupus and I had a friend who died of lupus young as well so I was afraid of having it. The rheumy did a blood test and I was very deficient in vitamin d causing these symptoms. I'd been on a lot of medicines for asthma plus medicines to counteract the effect of those medicines-and they depleted my body of vitamin d. She put me on a mega dose at first and now I am taking the daily allowance but I notice if I stop the symptoms start showing up again. So d is very important. But not too much. A blood test by a doctor will determine exactly how much is needed. So William take your d, if it's what the dr. recommends. It could help your overall health. And sunshine in small doses couldn't hurt. I guess I'm prejudice against rainy days because a good majority of the difficult moments in my life happened on rainy cloudy days-don't know why.

[vic smyth]

Do you have any idea why you prefer this weather?

I used to be a remodeling contractor so working in the hot, busy months was not fun. Rain and cold often gave me a day off of work. When the weather is really nice I feel guilty that I should be outside having the time of my life. Rain and cold makes it okay for me to stay inside and veg out. It also keeps my neighbors inside. Otherwise they are always outside with their turbo-charged yard gadgets either buzzing their lawns or buzzing their leaves. Though even in the winter they will spoil a pristine snow-covered morning by buzzing the snow.

I enjoy the sun, but not when it's hot. I also love changing seasons. Celera I often think of you (misplaced in southern California). 75 and sunny 350 days a year would drive me nuts also! But at least you're never more than a half day's drive away from mountains? I have to drive almost 1000 miles to escape Flatland.

With Lovingkindness (metta),
vic

With Lovingkindness,
vic

[Carol and Mikey]

Hi Carol,
Thanks so much for reminding me. I had read what you wrote in the numbers thread and didn't think to apply it to my three knocks during the thunder storm. Does Mikey think that the number 3 universally represents love in the afterlife or is this just for him?

Sorry, I too am off topic.
Bella,
Mikey tells me the number 3 means "love" to many! Is it "universal"? Mikey says he can't say. But he feels you should embrace the number 3 because it stands for love for many souls!
Carol and Mikey "in Spirit"

[mac]

I suggest we should now try to get back on track as we're all rambling.

[william61]

Not too sure where to put this, and I don't want to start a new thread.
This morning, instead of driving, I walked the 800 metres to my front gate to put the garbage out.
On the way back down I began thinking of my wife and remembered I hadn't placed any fresh flowers on her grave site for a couple of days. As happens every day, I began to sob,when suddenly I spotted some lovely white flowers growing on a single tree in among some thick scrub, jutting out in my line of sight. I have never seen these type of flowers on my 44 acre bushland property before,There were just enough for a regular bunch, so after picking them and taking them down to the flower holder on Nga's grave tree, I searched my whole property looking for another tree of the same type, but no there are no others.
Maybe I am grasping at straws, or in this case flowers, imagining this could be a 'sign' from my beloved, as I have previously mentioned,I've had nothing at all in the 5 1/2 months since she died.If I am deluding myself then I'll settle for self delusion because today is the happiest I've felt in all that time.
Bill.

[mokandi]

Made me happy to read this.

[vic smyth]

William, Sounds like a clear sign to me! What else would your wife want for you except to feel happy?


With Lovingkindness (metta),
vic

[mac]

In my earlier persona (set aside only recently!) I would have discounted the importance of that situation, Bill.

But mac's been re-considering 'stuff' like this of late and I'm keeping open-mind to all possibilities. It seems to me that Nga 'homed in' on all your emotions as a way of drawing close to you and of 'giving' you those unusual flowers precisely because she knew you'd maybe realise how unusual the situation would seem to you. And it worked! You and she were close together in that moment and although a repeat of the situation might not come easily again, she reached you that time and it's what you both needed so badly.

Enjoy what happened and keep the joy with you because it's what she intended. Even mac doesn't think it's self-delusion.

[Roberta Grimes]

Not too sure where to put this, and I don't want to start a new thread.
This morning, instead of driving, I walked the 800 metres to my front gate to put the garbage out.
On the way back down I began thinking of my wife and remembered I hadn't placed any fresh flowers on her grave site for a couple of days. As happens every day, I began to sob,when suddenly I spotted some lovely white flowers growing on a single tree in among some thick scrub, jutting out in my line of sight. I have never seen these type of flowers on my 44 acre bushland property before,There were just enough for a regular bunch, so after picking them and taking them down to the flower holder on Nga's grave tree, I searched my whole property looking for another tree of the same type, but no there are no others.
Maybe I am grasping at straws, or in this case flowers, imagining this could be a 'sign' from my beloved, as I have previously mentioned,I've had nothing at all in the 5 1/2 months since she died.If I am deluding myself then I'll settle for self delusion because today is the happiest I've felt in all that time.
Bill.

I concur with Mac, darling Bill! I have read so many accounts of dead loved ones giving us flowers to put on their graves - flowers blooming out of season on hillsides nearby, or - as in your case - just one random-seeming flowering bush or tree - that it doesn't even seem remarkable to me anymore. Those flowers were a hug from your wife, dear Bill. She is well and happy and able to communicate with you now, and she loves you! Please be comforted. No - be joyful!!